“I don’t know whether you celebrate Christmas or not.” My client was preparing to leave and had brought a thoughtful gift. I thanked and hugged her, assuring her that I most definitely celebrate the season. Like most people, I told her, I over-indulge and over-spend. We laughed and said our good-byes. Of course, I did not share my reasons for celebrating, but I have a history. All of us have Christmas histories; tender, sweet and sad stories of the heart that remain etched in our memory. But what is it about this season that we become more fragile? More loving? And more sad? Is it because we come home to our heart?
This can be a very painful time for some people. It is can also be a hopeful time as we scan the heavens for miracles. My Christmas history includes both pain and hope. As a child whose young, widowed Mother struggled heroically to give us a Christmas where our small wants were fulfilled; we would face long, dark winters of scarcity. She offered her best, putting aside her own pain and deep worry about survival. When she was given days to live one December years later, I didn’t know how I could celebrate Christmas again. But I had two small children. So I did what she did. Mind you for many years, at this time of year, I would descend into a painful abyss. I would freefall into a sadness so deep, it felt bottomless and then I would slowly emerge. I would put aside my pain and offer my best to my children. This is the essence of this season. We open our fragile hearts wide and offer love.
She is coming home. As you know, a majestic Full Moon will grace the heavens on Christmas. She-the Moon-will be in her ruling, or home, Sign of Cancer which means the usual effects of a Full Moon are amplified. This Full Moon Cancer manifests as the matriarch; the witch and the child. The Moon is the keeper of memories and this Full Moon will trigger memories that have been hidden in the hushed, quiet corners of your heart. Nostalgia is a natural part of this season and under the light of this Full Moon these feelings will become even more precious. All of the themes and myths of this Season, including family, traditions and food are amplified by this Full Moon. Our psychic sensitivities are keener. The veil between our known world and the realms beyond will thin. We may sense our loved ones who have departed close by. Our Queen of the Night, the Moon, is offering us a rare and precious gift this Yuletide.
She is taking us home. Home to our heart.
Merry Holidays to all!